NOTE: For the time being I have skipped Day 18 of Capture Your Grief. The “assignment” for that particular day is to do a family portrait and to somehow incorporate your angels into the picture. I haven’t had the time to get a picture so I will attempt to do that this weekend and post it another day.
Day 19: Project (10/19/12)
The only real “project” I’ve done in honor of my angels that took some time and creativity was a scrap book of various memories I had with the babies (pregnancy test pics, ultrasound pics, etc). Sorry for the poor picture quality. I am anything but a photographer.
Titled “So Special”
Day 20: Charity/Organization (10/20/12)
The organization that has helped me in my journey of grief has been the SHARE Organization. I attend my SHARE support group meetings once a month and have grown fairly close to my fellow angel moms; only they know my pain. http://www.nationalshare.org/
Day 21: Altar/Shrine/Sacred Place (10/21/12)
I have a few places throughout the house in which I have created a sacred place for my babies to be remembered; one is on the wall in our living room and the other is on top of our bedroom dresser (I also keep various photo albums of the walks/memorials I’ve attended).
Day 22: Place of Care/Birth (10/22/12)
Although I didn’t get the chance to deliver my babies I feel as though I need to give certain people/offices credit for helping me through my journey. I would like to thank my OB, Dr. V-Webb, for providing me with the best care possible during my pregnancy with Spencer (I was with a different OB for Caden and Brady). Thank you for trying everything in your power to save my baby, for holding my hand as ultrasound confirmed that Spencer no longer had a heartbeat, for taking wonderful care of me during my D&C (before and after), and for referring me on to a team of specialist that would work together to provide with me the answer I had been seeking since I lost Caden 14 months earlier; WHY???
I would also like to thank Dr. Austin at Maternal Fetal Medicine for taking the time to meet with me and getting the ball rolling on ruling out various possible causes.
And finally, a HUGE thank you to Dr. Dodds at the Fertility Center for catching things that no other doctor has caught before. For giving me a possible reason for my losses, for treating both the knowns and unknowns, and for being the knowledgeable and caring individual that you are. You “give” people babies that had lost all hope and I’m hoping that one day soon I will be blessed as well. I only wished you had come into my life a little earlier.
Day 23: Their Name/Their Photo (10/23/12)
From top to bottom: Caden Ryann, Brady Thomas, & Spencer Johnathan ❤ ❤ ❤
Our 3 Angels…Always loved, never forgotten
Day 24: Siblings (10/24/12)
Hayden & Connor: Big brothers to 3 younger angels in heaven!
Hayden & Connor
Day 25: Baby Shower/Blessing (10/25/12)
I never made it far enough to have a baby showers with my angels, but with Caden we had already made several plans and arrangements in anticipation of the arrival of our 3rd child. We moved into a bigger house, bought Hayden and Connor matching bedding sets since they would soon be sharing a room to make room for baby, and bought a few boxes of diapers, bottles, and formula.
Day 26: Their Age (10/26/102)